Judgement Day

13dpst. Just had my blood test today. Should get results in a couple of hours.

We were told that if the treatment was successful we would get a call from the nurse. Otherwise, the doctor would call is himself and explain the outcome.

I am too nervous so have asked the doctor's office to call DH' number rather than mine.

DH and I are just so glad to get it over it. Here's to hoping for a miracle.

Stop Googling!

5dpt. I have broken my own promise of not Googling about poor embryo quality, implantation symptoms post ET (embryo transfer) and eeeeverything related to IVF. You wouldn't believe the amount of internet literature on the subject. Sometime it's nice to know I am not the only going through this, and it helps to learn from other people's experiences. But then I start reading stories of failed IVF attempts and I get concerned.  

Speaking of experience, I purposely haven't shared much lately or looked at this blog because I just didn't want to be reminded of what I have gone through. Even my BFF this morning asked why wasn't I writing anything for the past few days. How wrong was I? I started this blog primarily to remind myself of how much I was able to go through, and despite everything I still had the sense of purpose to go ahead. 

So far I am experiencing some mild cramping everyday in my lower abdomen but have had no implantation spotting. First IVF I had no implantation spotting, the second IVF I had some. Both times, the blood tests indicated there wasn't even any implantation happening. So, go figure. Then again I have heard not everyone has implantation spotting. Note to self: Stop Comparing!

Took my second Pregnyl injection yesterday. I have two more to take in the next few weeks. I'm experience some side effects on injection day, such as some mild nausea off and on and dizziness. I usually stay in and rest. Drinking lots of water and just taking it easy. Having my family and friends around to visit also helps take my mind of the IVF program. Lots of laughter feeds the soul. Like my doctor said this should be "happy time". 

We have eight more days till the pregnancy blood test.  In the meantime, it's hard not to wonder whether our embryos have implanted or not. Did they survive? So many unanswered questions, but I am trying not to think about it most of the day. Just sometimes. Can't help it. Who can though?